Officium Triste Hortus Venenum 1. Behind Closed Doors Behind closed doors a depraved narcissist reigns Over a kingdom devoid of empathy Inside four walls his victim suffers from pain Terrorized and stripped of all dignity When there are secrets Secrets no one can see Close the door to protect them And throw away the key Behind closed doors you’re living in a grave Waiting for your final breath Within these walls you live on borrowed time Your life inside equals death When there are secrets Secrets no one can see Close the door to protect them And throw away the key Behind closed doors a depraved narcissist reigns Inside four walls his victim suffers from pain Behind closed doors you lie in filth Your mind broken into insanity Locked inside your willpower’s all gone Being alive has become your enemy Behind closed doors you’ve lost this fight Broken you lay on the floor Within this cage there is no light Neither strength nor key to open the door 2. My Poison Garden My mind, my soul, a poison garden These thoughts inside are getting darker Every minute, every hour, every day Always there, they never seem to go away These questions and thoughts inside It seems they trace back to a past life In a fog the memories hide Blinded by hurt I’d rather die The pain inside I cannot stand Losing control, I’m at my wit’s end My mind, my soul, a poison garden These thoughts inside are getting darker Every minute, every hour, every day Always there, they never seem to go away My poison garden 3. Anna's Woe A city drenched by endless rain In the year of sixteen hundred and eight A woman mourning and in pain Depressed and lonely she lost all faith Sentenced to death for witchcraft And for being satan’s whore She cast a spell on the city It would rain forevermore A victim since her husband died All alone she was left behind Confused she wanders through the streets Misunderstood while her heart bleeds Betrayed she feels hollow inside Before her sentence she already died Strangled then burned at the pyre The truth forever lost in the fire Sentenced to death for witchcraft And for being satan’s whore She cast a spell on the city It would rain forevermore 4. Walk in Shadows As I walk in shadows Of a black poison cloud above me I hear these whispers In the back of my darkened mind Is it an angel telling me everything will be alright? The dark will disappear and the light will shine bright What is right and what is wrong? Is this the life in which I belong? As I walk in shadows Of a black poison cloud above me I hear these whispers Messing with my troubled soul Is it a demon telling me I am going to die? That I’m better off dead and I should stop living this lie What is right and what is wrong? Is this the life in which I belong? Good and evil on my shoulders The balancing scales of life Will I succeed or fail? What will I decide? These whispers, what can I believe? Is it my mind playing tricks on me I’m on these crossroads, I’m lost inside Confused and helpless, my hands are tied Is it an angel telling me everything will be alright? Or is it a demon that tells me to give up this fight? What is right and what is wrong? Is this the life in which I belong? As I walk in shadows Of a black poison cloud above me Can someone stop these whispers In the back of my darkened mind 5. Forcefield Disappointed by people surrounding me The lessons in life I have learned I have to protect myself from falling into ruin I don’t give in, I won’t get burnt Even when it feels like a distant dream To manage my pain with an invisible shield When I no longer have to scream Knowing I’m safe within this forcefield I am not ready for the kingdom of the spirits I embrace hope, despair I’ll fight No time for the last nail in my coffin It’s not just the dead that sleep tight No time for the last nail in my coffin It’s not just the dead that sleep tight Disappointed by people surrounding me The lessons in life I have learned I have to protect myself from falling into ruin I don’t give in, I won’t get burnt 6. Angels with Broken Wings In times of sorrow, misery and despair Children cry, uncertain what the future brings Their innocence lost, they are scared They are like angels with broken wings Their playgrounds are gone Bombshells their new toys And in the background the sirens howl Their schools in ruins Their homes destroyed And in the distance all these bombs fall Their childhood robbed Victims of war Angels with broken wings Scarred forevermore In times of sorrow, misery and despair Children cry, uncertain what the future brings Their innocence lost, they are scared They are like angels with broken wings